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7/30/05 02:27 am - I feel home...

There are few things pure in this world anymore, and home is one of the few
We'd have a drink outside maybe run and hide, if we saw a couple men in blue
But to me it's so damn easy to see that your people are the people at home
Well I been away but now I'm back today and there ain't a place I'd rather go

I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Cause home, to me, is reality and all i need is something real

We're feeling alright headin out tonight maybe off to a dark driveway
I say now, some feel bored, and some are looking for more, but we all just decide to stay
We got nothing to do, but when I look at you I see something that i know and love
And with the crack of a smile we all stay awhile, we know from home there ain't nothin above

Well in the end, we can all call a friend, well that's something that I know as true
In a thousand years, and a thousand tears, I'll come findin my original crew
Cause to me throughoutt eternity there is somewhere we are welcome to go
I said it's something free that means a lot to me, when I'm with my friends I feel home

I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real
Home to me is reality and all I need is something real, I feel home...

7/30/05 02:16 am - wow

its been awhile...yet again.

camp was amazing. I don't even know where to begin. Pretty much I am in love with every person there.

12/18/04 04:10 pm - WOWWWWW

wow i need to update this thing...

ahhhhhh everything keeps getting better.
Finals are over. And last night was so awesome. Hanging out with megan, jeff, and kyle. I love those kids so much. Going to sleeeper...thats a silly place. Then the stars at tipco. ah. It just doesnt get much better than that. Really.
Then this afternoon...was in the car after we dropped megan off...heard SAVE TONIGHT...and i was like thats it...i gotta get into pio. So i came home, made some soup and realized wow...the mail here sucks because i need my letter RIGHT NOW. So i waited, looked out the window...and MAIL IS HERE. i grabbed my shoes. Ran outside...and there it was THE LETTER. so i threw the other mail down on my porch and right then i read the letter. They accepted me in to PIOOOO...then i screamed and ran into the house, and spazzed out, then i called julia, then i told everyone. and now im sleepy because that toook lots outta me!

11/27/04 01:21 am - this bites

i. never. realized. how. good. i. actually. had. it. what the hell is wrong with me? honestly.

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
--vertical horizon

11/26/04 01:14 am

well looks like i have to start keeping up with my live journal. however, i dont like the fact that everyone in the entire world could read this if they really wanted to...i think i need to start over, completly. That sounds really good right about now.

woaah by the way. It must be said....reunion was unbelievably fun in chicago! i love all of you soooooo freaking much. it was exactly what i needed!!!

10/9/04 11:43 pm

so everyone thinks every entry means something, that it doesnt....everyone thinks that its all about scotty..."scotty doesnt know" hahah megs. scotty, your awesome, but its not all about you...haha i mean that with loooove

sooo im done.


and im just horrible...for the reason of the tyler/jeff ish situation-- is there a situation?

10/7/04 04:23 pm - ahh

french tutor today, heyyy maybe i actually dooo know whats going on. haha. Tomorrow is friday, great! and im gonna make it work.
So i guess nothing goes as planned, and im not exactly sure what to do....so what do i do? haha blahblha i have to go. ill have to talk about this later....but yeah i miss him.
and even though things dont go as planned, you can make it work out...right? ahh this bites hahaha



I knew how it felt to be
Another one in need
of someone to show the way
until you saw a part of me
that nobody else could see
and my life hasnt been the same
you make me feel lucky as i can be
you make me feel lucky as i can be
Before i couldnt get a break
never had a chance to make
the impressions i want to
but now it falls right into place
when i get to see your face
then theres nothing that i can do
you make me feel lucky as i can be
--hoobastank

9/26/04 10:37 pm

aw everything is just going grrrrrrreat at the moment...im so hyper!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
eeee this is awsome.

Emily and i are just so good. yes we are. a;lskdjfsaldkj i have to shower and get glitter off me. but oh man. what a goood nights its been

eeeeeemily, this is gonna be awsome. eeeeeeeeeeee

9/25/04 06:07 pm

services today. uhg. i fasted, so finally when it was time to actually BREAK the fast, my mom told me how we were gonna break it quick and then go out for a second dinner... of course i was all whatdahewl. because i had enough being at temple, family time...i wanted to get out of the house and do something this weekend, but of course i have to spend time with the family for my dads birthday. Not to mention i have to see my sister, which i know that she will end up yelling at me about SOMETHING, i can just feel it. Anyway, after i asked my mom why we would break the fast, and go out for a second dinner, she got all pissy, and decided to do her "lets act like a moody teenager, and not talk to amanda" she really knows how to make everyone around her happy...not. So that is what i have to go to dinner with. I really dont want to go to dinner, i havent eaten anything since last night, and i am somewhat hungry, but i honestly think i could go for longer. So heres the deal...if anyone has anything to say over dinner, that is remotely uncalled for..then im calling a friend and leaving...haha that would fun.
uhg wish me luck.

and then not to mention, that even if i could do something after dinner, its not like my friends would have anything planned/take the time to invite me...uhg they never want to make the plans anymore, and they always try to leave it up to someone else. --me, who cant make plans due to the fact that i might not be able to join in on them?

9/24/04 10:23 pm

services were good. it made me think. whether that be a good thing or a bad thing, im not sure, however i think it is leaning towards good.

randomthough*
its just hard to deal with. we live in a place where everyone strives to fit in. Strives to be just like one another. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you will never be able to be just like everyone else though. You may try to hide things, hide facts about yourself, but they are still there. They are still a part of you. So why do you try to hide them so much? Why are you trying deny parts of you? Why do we worry so much about what everyone else thinks about us?

errr...just a question that i was pondering tonight.


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